30 October 2009, Sad + tired working day

30 October 2009, Friday
1 more day, tmr will come to last day of October. Really feel the day come really fast! See my age older and older and next month comes to my birthday. I'm no longer a young girl where know as mommy's girl. I'm awake and slowly become adult and for sure i will come to the stage to become mommy later. Tmr i have been thinking should i work or skip the work. I had been work for 3 weeks!! Think, decided~!! I will nt working tmr la. Hehe, this didnt meant i'm lazy wo but sure i will work de. But till now we all havent get salary from my boss yet. So slow and pity us. So much tired in this week. Feel wanna rest in office but the appointment like non stop! Very tired. Been using team viewer format customize for customer and demo product really first time ever in my life. I really never use on this beside support. Hahaha, feel myself really expert of this. Dont jealous me cuz i'm really genius in this. Wakakaka. :D

Binnie,
Mommy miss you again. This whole week had been raining at the afternoon after mommy back from lunch. How are you there? Got miss mommy or nt? Mommy till now non stop thinking of you. Did binnie catch under the rain? Or someone else take you home? Mommy really tired of the case. You know that your aunty (Yan Leng) also disturb me? Her laptop going something wrong and she cried! Haiz. :( So sad~~ :'(

28 October 2009, Miss binnie again

28 October 2009, Wednesday
Suddenly cant sleep so get to wake up to update the blog. Maybe i'm slept at the evening time when reach home. SO i didnt feel any sleepy now. But i know also got to sleep too. Tomorrow i need to on site whole day! I really cant imagine when i will become old and dull in one day later? Did binnie still remember me as his mom when i manage get him back?

Darling,
I had emailed some question regarding ty bear selling in Malaysia. The person in charge told me that binnie was a limited edition in US MacDonald at year 2006. Malaysia cant get this ty bear, he/ she ask me try to ask or try to purchase at Ebay. So can consider that no one can get binnie again in Malaysia. I'm feel really regret till now why i so careless till binnie dropped i also dont know. I feel i'm really miss him. Where did him go? Who toke him away and dont wanna to return to me? My heart really sallow, sad. I miss my binnie! He had been live together with me so long years and now he just leave me like that.

Darling,
Why binnie dont even want to come to my dream where he is now! Why binnie just keep quiet and dont wanna me to secure him from bad ppl's hand? Dont him miss me? Or he angry me dropped him on floor and just run to your grandmom house? I really didnt meant it darling. I miss him. I always think of him before i sleep. But now all become past. If doremon here, i might ask him back to the day and time, take binnie on my hand.

Binnie,
How are you? Got mommy or daddy? Or even Winnie or Hunny? They are missed you. That is include mommy and daddy too. Let us know where are you can? Please dont angry mommy lo ok. Mommy didnt meant want to drop you de. I just accidently dropped you only. Binnie, mommy love you. Really love you. Mommy decided to get another clone of you back to my side. But he cant replace you. Dont angry ya. Muakss

Darling,
This Saturday my university friends gathering and you will be there too. Thanks accompany me go there and become cashier of mine. As promised, we will go to the shop see we can get binnie of not first. Really long time we didnt go to dating already lo. I will take this chance and we can go become sweet sweet again. I love you darling!

26 October 2009, So much in love with BooBoo

26 October 2009, Monday

Reach office 904am, lots of pending works since last week. So much tired, non stop busy since 10am. Do lots of work, no one here help me. But is ok, cuz this is my works, i have to settle it myself. So many support calls in today compare last week, really dont understand how the STUPID COW support when i'm nt around. Format customize + Data Migration + Support calls + Troubleshooting!! Really really non stop. So tired of work, but i'm really enjoy it! This is a part of my job. This is why i didnt accept accounting as my full time but my part time. I really learn many things here. Thanks to my boss willing to let me learn so fast of things..

Darling,
Today~~ We already been together 5 months 1 week 3 days already. So fast and 3 weeks later we will go through half year already!! Thinking how had we been together and just a simple step only. Very very thank you for pamper me so much since the day. Yea, at this 5 months+ we had been going through sweet, sad, bitter, spicy. ... We had been tried so many spices. Sorry to make you sad or cry on last few months back. I really didnt meant it. Sorry darling. I love you!

Darling,
I know we are not like others who can with each other accompany everyday. I only can see you at weekend just because of the distance. I will wait, wait till the time coming then i can upgrade my status already. Hehe, this i didnt meant i want to be your wife ah, just wanna to let you know i love you, i very very love you darling! Thanks so much for everything ya~~

Binnie,
Here raining again. How's you there? Did you take good care of yourself? Got miss mommy and your brothers? Even kitty too? Mommy still waiting for you comes to mommy's dream to tell me where you are now. Mommy at here still thinking of you, missing you in heart. Mommy already stop crying cuz i know even i'm cry every night also no use. Mommy really dont know where are you now. I have no idea. If you love mommy too, please tell mommy ok. Mommy love you so much!

Hunny & Winnie Pooh,
Again dont jealous with gorgor ok. Binnie gorgor, he is the one only accompany mommy at this 6 years before you both live with me. He is always you all's gorgor, big brother. I know you are missed him too. So let's pray gorgor will feel better at the other side ok. Mommy love you two too.

Kitty,
I know you are fresh with binnie gorgor, but remember he is your big gorgor besides Hunny and Winnie gorgor ok.

Love you all! Muakkksss

25 October 2009, Challenge To Broga Hill

25 October 2009, Sunday

Awake early morning 5am, ready to go Broga Hill with all my colleagues. Last night slept so late, can consider only sleep 2 hours+ only. I slept at 2am+ after watched Clifton's posted video. All is about a elephant mommy give birth of elephant baby. REALLY TOUCH when the mommy want her kid learn how to walk, keep on kick her baby want him/her awake. Around 4am+ raining, thinking did them cancel the trip to Broga Hill? No call from any of them, so we just go out and meet Clifton. Allen waited us at Petronas Petrol station. On the way not much of car, we used 40mins to reach Broga Hill.

Prepared well and follow them go up to the hill. Feel is tired and my heart beat so fast! So many holes i saw by the way, if they is a mistake, sure will gone down to the hill. I really cant manage to go up and just at the half way, but Allen told me only little more i will manage go up. Will try again maybe next month. When tired of this, i had selected go down the hill and boo accompany me too. Really feel sorry ya darling. I'm the one who easily to give up when comes problem. Wait them in the car, maybe i'm too much tired so i'm asleep in the car too.

Having a nice breakfast where Allen bring us. Who ask him is Kajang lang wor. Hehe. Nice 'lat tong', 'foh pao yok' and 'fah tiew kei'. This spend us around RM92. Go home and sleep till 4pm+ only wake up. Ready the dinner for my bro, sis and of cause my dearest darling!!

Darling,
Thanks so much patient with me when going up with me to the hill. Your fufu is really useless where only stay at half hill. You also patient with me when going down hill. Love you boo!

Binnie,
Mommy still thinking of you. I will not forgot you no matter how. Promise mommy really need to take care ok. Mommy love you so much!

Winnie & Hunny Pooh,
Dont jealous with binnie korkor ok. Mommy also love you both de.

23 October 2009, tired working day

23 October 2009, Friday

Binnie,
Today raining non- stop at mommy's work place here. Sometimes big, sometimes small. This kind of weather, let mommy think of you. Daddy told me his place raining recently at evening. I really no idea where are you now. 6 days! Already almost 1 week mommy no dream of you, why you dont want come to mommy's dream to tell mommy where are you. Really dont want mommy already? Or angry mommy drop you?

Binnie,
Tomorrow got to work. So mommy will be late or maybe sunday only will go to daddy's house. So patient while ya ok? Mommy sure will take this chance to ask his neighbors did anyone see you or bring you home. No matter how mommy will not give up find you. Didi -es miss you and ask when you will back. Kitty didnt ask you much cause only know you few days not even one week. Remember that mommy will always love you! You are the always my love son.

Darling,
Sorry that this 2 days online late. I'm really tired. The stupid dog really make us cant peace. As complaint with you yesterday night, think carefully, customer really stay near from our office, why he can stay till 3 hours+ also havent come back? Only the SINGLE PC license. No one will blame if under networking environment. But how come! I install and mapping also 30 to 40mins. 3 hours!! Really dont know what the fuck he doing out there. Nia ma. No one like him! Like to pai pose. Ask him die la!!! :@ Today already tired when come back from taman mayang, my customer's side. Think will nice sitting at office with air cond. Wow, again when reach back office see everyone like war -ing. Clifton tell me "WELCOME TO THE WAR MS. CHIN". What the!! Thought nothing to do. But my boss ask me follow back the case: Again~!! The dog cant manage settle. Really hate him so much. No one like him de la. All busy like hell but he so free to call his friend. When to on site with him, stupid him, customer blamed him didnt give info correctly. Blamed on me also how my colleague dont know support but like expert!! See i kena scold. Really super super hate him!

21 October 2009, Missing Binnie Day

21 October 2009, Wednesday

Tonight my dearest on night duty. Since he already promised me he will take care himself so i didnt worry him much. He already used to be night duty since dont know how long ago. So, as usual i will patiently wait for his call till i sleep later.

My Dear Binnie,
Forgive mommy that miss you till cried every night then only sleep. Mommy really miss you till every night have to think of you before sleep. How are you there? Since this few days raining, are you be fine? Mommy really no idea where are you now. Your daddy's mommy ask the malay kids, they said yes, they saw you on floor, but didnt pick you up and just left you on the floor. I'm worry did the cat toke you away and eat your body till cant see you in this life again? No matter how, mommy will get you back. I dont want you are on others' hand.

Binnie,
Mommy got something want to tell you. Mommy decided to purchase another set ty binnies' from Ebay. I want to get all your family to join back together. If mommy really cant get you back, can mommy to bring another binnie back home? Mommy already told your didi -es and daddy the new binnie ant replace you. You are the always eldest son of mine. No one will over you and i will always let Winnie and Hunny know you are always eldest brother of them. They are always ask mommy and daddy when you will back home and go to school with them again.

Binnie,
Take care yourself since mommy is not there. I cant give you milk milk since Sunday night. I'm very sorry binnie. Forgive mommy ok. Mommy really miss you. Shall i print out your photo and distribute to all your daddy's neighbors? Should i? This is daddy's idea. Mommy had been waiting for you comes to mommy's dream since Sunday night. Why you didnt come and let mommy know whre are you? Why? Dont you want mommy to secure you from bad ppl's hand? Hope really binnie today come to mommy's dream ok. When daddy going to night duty tonight too will chant for you to make you feel better.
Binnie,
Take care till mommy and daddy found you. Mommy love you, we will love you always.

Darling,
Thanks for searching whole net just look Binnie for me. I love you and sure we manage to get all the binnie later. I very very love you!!
Muakssss

19 October 2009, We will miss Binnie always. :'(

19 October 2009, Monday

Binnie!!
Did you hear me? Mommy is looking for you, as well as your daddy now. Where are you now? Please give us reply? Dont you miss mommy? daddy? And also your brothers and kitty? U know that mommy cant sleep whole night? Daddy also missed you till now. He feels guilty of didnt check you all when enter the car. Binnie please reveal yourself ok. Mommy really miss you badly. Mommy cried myself to sleep. I'm hugging Winnie and Hunny tell them lots of things. Winnie & Hunny feel alone without you along. You are the big gorgor to take care of them when mommy go to work. Why you now so cruel and leave me away?

Binnie,
You are with me since i'm 18 years old. Been together with me, stay with me 6 years. Mommy really cant imagine i will lose you just for one day. Please come to mommy's dream tell mommy who toke you home and i will ask daddy to bring you home later. Why you dont want to reveal yourself? I want to touch you, touch your beans near your ass there. But seems this is so far away away. Mommy feel loneliness at night without you along. Your didi- es become more quiet. No one will answer daddy's phone again since you had gone. No one will let us smile, tell us jokes after you had been gone.

Binnie,
Please tell mommy or goes to your dad's dream where are you ok. If his neighbors toke you home, at lease daddy can ask for their parents let you come back mommy's side. Please dont leave us away. Daddy will bring you up from drain if you accidently drop into it.

Binnie,
Again daddy and mommy want you to comes to our dream tonight ok. We are planning to buy another cousin of you. Even if we really decided to buy him, he cant replace you as my eldest son. Yea, our faith is nt too long, but mommy really treat you as my beloved son always. I will not giving up to find you. You are always with me, where same with daddy's heart too. Your daddy is always chant hope to see you later, or even next day morning. Please give us a miracle ok.

Binnie,
Di and Mi love you forever and ever! You will be always be in our heart.

Muaksss

14 October 2009, being love and love

14 October 2009, Wednesday
There is 2 days more we will come to 5 months. So fast! We are too easily and so fast we can get into it. Thanks so much for this coming 5 months~ caring, loving, understanding. You are always with me when i'm really need you the most. Appreciate what i have, thank you my dearest boo!!

Boo,
Today actually i need to do one only data migrate. But thanks to alex of the last minute. If Allen didnt call me, sure i dont know and allen prepare to die when goes to customer place. The reason he gives us is TODAY MORNING ONLY FOUND HIS PENDRIVE. Wow!! Why you never tell me need to do with the data migration. Suddenly i feel he is very scary, he even can kill you from behind. What is he trying to do? What me and allen die together? If we die, what he get? He what also dont know, no wonder allen said he learn also no use. Stupid him!! I really unhappy with him. Really feel he is one i wanna to scold and burn him whole body. Pukima!! :@ See make me say bad word already :S
Boo,
3 more days we will go cameron again. I really feel i dont wanna to go. Dont ask me why. Just can tell you this what i want. I dont know what make me have this decision. Sorry, i just dont wanna to disappointed you and dont want to see you unhappy. I dont know how to reject ppl. I'm the one dont know what is REJECT. Sorry

12 October 2009, Monday

12 October 2009, Monday

Working day again, Remember, last night when you went home i cried again after long time. I'm really miss you just you had leave. Why the happy moment always passed fast and i dont feel any of it? And the one more thing is: I'm found my hair clips!!

Boo,
Your fu fu very miss you! We are different from others where we will only will meet each other at Saturday & Sunday. Because we are too far from each other, so we only catch each other from webcam every weekday from Monday to Friday. Thinking last night, when only i can be your side, pamper by you, hold me sleep. Yea, my boo did it when overnight with me or i go to your house too. Miss you already. :( What to do? Just be patient, believe that i will be yours now and also forever! I will love you always de.

Boo,

I'm really dont understand why he wants to act pose when answer the phone? The phone is look for me, my admin already told and mention is for me but he still want to answer! Is ok, but i really angry is i forgotten to close my appointment diary book just now when i go to lunch. He was went out with Clif. He dare till sit on my chair and read it!! :@ What is manners! This is a simple as every children also know. How come he dont know de!! Nvm la, since just a little things. Last time my email now even got to share with him. Hate it. Where can like that? I so angry what he had done! I hate him, really un- song of him!! He is the most fei chai that i ever see. See, everyone complaint of him but your fu is the most one! Angry him. TMD!! :@

Boo,
Your fu really so much in love with you. I will always love you. I know you are too stress when working, but try to think of me, our cute sons sure you will feel better de ok. If really cant endure, you can text or call me. Yea, sometimes i will late reply or late read your text, dont angry ah.

Muakss, again
Love You.

10 October 2009, Seafood Day

10 October 2009, Saturday

Really a good day for today beside falls on 090909, where means in mandarin is JiuJiuJiu, Forever means. Now in 1010, shi quan shi mei, where means all is all nice, all comes to nice. Would we will take 121212? Hahaha. :P Happy Wedding Anniversary to your parents!! May them will healthy and wealthy always.

My hand was pain after you tried to open and hold my hand last night. I want you to accompany me go to pasar malam de lo but you say you want go back home. Actually i'm not angry but sad. Why always keep promised my things didnt do? Maybe i'm the one who get ppl's bully. My brother & sister bully me, now your turn! You dont even know i'm cry. Nvm, just forget about it since already pass.

I bought a pair of hair clips- Pink & Blue colour, crystal. RM5 but now really dont know where i drop already. I want my hair clips back! Maybe when i take my phone out then hair clips drop d lo. So sad. I just get and wanna to wear tmr de, but now.. End nothing. :(

Night, see ya again.

09 Oct 2009 @Hot Day

09 October 2009, Friday

So fast, already 6th day of the week reach. Going to the 7th day. This whole week really nt really till no time to update the blog up. Nothing need to improvement but i need to put some photos of us soon. Maybe later? Tmr? Or when i feel the mood comes first ok?

Working with a LJ ppl is the bad thing ever i had. Who am i mention you should know. Really too much stress!! Need to take care of his things, what i had passed over to him at Tuesday before i went to training nothing finish to me!! End up you need to do back yourself. I dont know why my boss will get a ppl like him. But there is 1 thing i'm quite appreciate to get from my boss and Clifton is- They will trained me to become marketing staff since there is a vacancy since Jasper had resign. Clifton ask me to think of the CUM position.~ You know what the mean? Means they want your fu fu become Marketing + Trainer + Technical Support. But salary i dont know how much my boss wiling to pay me. Telemarketing also not bad for me, but they need a outdoor marketing. Let me think of it, and my boss give me 1 month time to think. If i dont want, i will become technical support and trainer as now. :D

If you didnt told me sure i will be forget our next friday 5 months anniversary. So fast we had been through 5 month since May. What i will expect to get from you ah darling? You better think of it till the day comes! Maybe i will do something DIY for you to let you know how sweet of your fu fu is ok. :P

Muakss, i will love you always boo. :)

Starting

Dearest darling,

This is the final blog where i had created last night. I want to keep this secret till i really done this blog. I had add a chat box there for easier we chat, drop each other some love when tiring of work.

I will always love you, tmr is the first blog where from 07 October 2009. Will copy & paste back our love diary when comes to Saturday ok.

Love you, Muakkss

FuFu